Eh...

That is kind of how I feel about last night's group session. Guess I was hoping for a little more miracle and a little less reliving the pain but I guess that is part of the process. I have put so much energy into moving on that I never dealt with the issues when they happened.

It's all a package deal.

For me at least, I can honestly give an opinion that there is no single road to recovery. It's a cocktail for lack of a better word. I take meds, I see a therapist, I "try" to exercise regularly and now I am going to try the group thing. So what about all that self help out there? Is it a bunch of hooey? Ah, so you get to learn about the final piece of my puzzle. The self help book... or audio... or movie. Maybe it is actually falling into the spiritual part of the puzzle because it has definitely taken a spiritual turn. I have gone from "getting organized" books to books more spiritually inspirational. So what should I recommend others? What ever you are drawn to. I have really found a positive influence in listening to Wayne Dyer. And because of my enjoyment of listening to him speak (usually while I am working, lol) I have looked up some of his influences including Rumi and now I am trying to make sense of "A Course in Miracles".

Therapists.

Therapists are great, at least as a concept. I am sure on an individual basis there are both good and bad but the ability to spill what is bothering you to someone that is impartial and preferably trained is a gift to any human with emotions to spare or anyone with a nervous system for that matter.
I have had the same therapist since my separation from my ex, and she has been such a great help to me through some really tough times. But I guess even one on one therapy isn't enough to help me move on from from this broken heart I am holding onto tightly. For the past two years she has been bugging me to go to a support group for divorced and widowed singles. Well, I finally caved. It was awkward and I broke down in front of strangers I don't know, but I think it is going to be something I am going to have to do. I have a lot riding on this Monday night meeting.
I am having the worst time letting go, and it is incredibly hard to move forward with a heavy weight tied to your ankle.