I have been busy. I am sorry. I wanted to write some positive notes but trying to keep up with the normal life stuff means blogging gets pushed back. Of course that is until something happens and my mood goes from tolerable to unavoidably depressed. And that is my dilemma. I can practice all the positive thinking exercises, think I am prepared for what comes next but then something happens and I am reduced once again to a blubbering mess. So is life testing my new resolves to strengthen me or is it the cosmos telling me that I am kidding myself to believe that I can conquer my weaknesses? So someone for a service fired me as a client. I instantly felt inadequate and horrible guilt because frankly I was really a horrible person to work with. At the beginning of the week something else happened where I was at fault and I instantly felt extreme guilt. I rectified the situation but I still felt horrible. So what exactly is guilt? Why does it hold on so tight? If you have an honest opinion give me a content.
I am back to the thought of failure. Maybe I am not meant to be my own boss. Maybe I can't handle it all. Maybe I can't success any anything I set my passion towards. When do you fight to win and when do you give up?
